
The
turning point for me started in the summer of 1998. I was putting in a
private airfield on my 52 acre estate just outside of Atlanta. A month or
so into the project, I found myself in a battle with Dekalb County challenging
my right to put an airfield on my property. To be sure it was an audacious
undertaking. Dekalb had only one other airport at the time, and the county
commissioners would close that in a heartbeat if they could get away with
it.
What really gave me pause for reflection was that I saw something
about myself and my life that I hadn't seen before. Here I was battling tooth
and nail for a private airfield expending an incredible amount of time and
energy for a relatively minor passion.... and yet I was completely
ignoring some far more deeply rooted passions.
Having your own airfield is certainly one way to express personal power... but
it seemed to me to be a somewhat shallow expression. Not that
there is anything wrong with it; more like it just seemed like I was using my talents and abilities in self-serving
pursuits that I found to be not quite what fit my own personal definition of
"heroic".
I think every 12 year old boy creates a vision of the type of
man he wants to become. My vision for myself was huge. Though I had all
the trappings of success the world seems to value, my own company, wealth,
talents, intellect, etc. I still knew there was incredible potential inside me I
simply was not tapping. Talents that were not being fully used, developed,
and put on display. There were Contributions I could make.... and wasn't
making.
I might be successful in others eyes, but in my own, I had a vision of
who I could be, and I knew how much bigger it was than I was being.
I am not talking about more money or external success. It is more a
highly individualized "code hero" we all carry inside ourselves.
Our own set of personal values. It has nothing at all to do with
accumulation as an objective. Indeed for me feels more like contribution
and developing oneself. Far more about who you are being in your life than
what you have.
How do you define your hero? To me it would be a person who
embodies your own highest individual values. It seems to me that if one
acts with integrity, they cannot help but embody their own highest values.
How on earth could anyone outside yourself express your values better than you
have the potential to do? And who else could you possibly end up being
than the embodiment of your own hero if you made all your choices consistent
with your highest values?
I spent a lot of time with myself in the mornings getting in touch with
the parts of myself I had evidently lost touch with, reclaiming some of my
"humanity" I had evidently lost. The ten year old boy who upon
discovering that people were starving in the world, felt pain and promised
himself he would not loose that feeling and would somehow, someday do something
that would make a difference. Where did he go? I wanted that part of
me back! Now that was something worth fighting for!
Being a person who really committed a part of his life to making a
difference in world hunger and disease prevention would be consistent with my
values and is something my hero would do. I had been fascinated with
hydroponics for cultivating foodcrops since I had seen an exhibit in
DisneyWorld's Epcot exhibit called "The Land". I also had
interests in design and architecture as well as self sufficient
housing.
It seemed possible to me to design a structure to feed and house a family
of four and do it in a manner that was economical and ecological. I love
design and have this incredible creative nature. Indeed, I have been labeled a
"creative genius" by lots of people. Having invented not one but
two methods of removing vocals from recordings and being pretty much regarded as
"the world expert" in this arena, I started to take the gifts of my
talents more seriously. Perhaps I really could do something this
incredibly ambitious.
I also wondered about whether people like "Habitat for
Humanity" were already working on such projects. I took a trip down
to Americus to look at their "International Village". I was
surprised to find out that even sanitation was not being addressed with some
composting technologies that had been around for over a decade.
I knew that
what I was looking at undertaking was incredibly ambitious. Most would
think it outrageous to attempt to address the multitude of issues I was
contemplating in one fell swoop. A single structure to provide
1)Shelter 2)Food - with hydroponic, soil culture and aquaculture 3)Sanitation
4)Passive Heating and Cooling 5)Self Sufficient Power Generation through solar
and fuel cell technology. It does seem quite an undertaking.
Still it is the very type of problem I LOVE to tackle. One
that looks "impossible". Having been told vocal elimination was
"impossible" and having developed two ways of doing it, I am not
one easily dissuaded by the opinions of others, if I feel I am up to the
task. I feel I am.
I contacted and hired Raymond Bridwell; the hydroponics expert who
had designed Disney's "The Land" exhibit. I am in the process of
refining the design and plan to construct a full size prototype on my property
in 2003. I expect LOTS of difficulties and temporary setbacks. Anyone who
engages in such an ambitious multifaceted undertaking would be foolish to expect
otherwise. The difficulty and the challenge makes the project all the more
attractive to me. I love things that test my metal and more importantly force me
to grow.
I call the project the GreenHouse.
How I Started My Company
From the time I was thirteen, I knew I wanted to become a
singer. It was one of those other moments... that change your life forever
the primary pivotal point of my adolescence. I was sweeping the patio one Saturday morning and the intercom was
playing. A song came on and I started to hum along with it. The words were
easy "Can't get used to loosing you. No matter what I try to do. Gonna live
my whole life through .... Loving You." As I sang I was awestruck at how my
puberty changed voice sounded so incredibly similar to the person singing....
and it sounded Good!
"That was Andy Williams singing 'Can't Get Used To Loosing You' " the announcer stated. From that moment on I bought every Andy Williams recording I could find. The die was cast! Singing was my newfound Passion!
I also had this
thing for airplanes. Perhaps because between the age of two and six I
lived directly across from the airport in Columbus, Ga. Actually, come to think
of it my airstrip is in my front yard now... guess the idea got it's roots
early! I competed for and won a nomination to the United States Air Force
Academy in Colorado. I wanted to be an astronaut to give me
"something to fall back on" if my singing dreams didn't work out.
After all the hazing from the first year of cadet life was over, I
had a little time to think. It didn't take me long to choose singing over
space travel. I left at the end of the first year and went to Georgia Tech
and studied architecture.... all the while spending far more time on figuring
out how to start my singing career than studying.
Some time around my senior year credit wise, I was driving to
Tech when another of those magic "moments" that change your life
dramatically occurred. I really needed background music to sing with and had
been thinking "What if there was a way to remove the voice from a recording
and leave the music." Having been told it was "impossible"
by persons who should know.... I still thought about it anyway.
Well, it hit me like a bolt of lightning. The music on the
left and right channels was different yet the voice was in the middle and the
same. What if you flipped the phase of one channel and added it to the
other? It should cancel the voice and leave the music.
I knew Nothing! about electronics at the time. I went to one of my acoustics
professors Dr. Gene Patronis after I tried to wire up something at home to do the
trick. Dr. Patronis drew up a circuit to cancel the common information, I
built it and
amazingly it worked!
Initially, it was to be my "secret weapon" to produce my singing
backgrounds.
I had suspended my studies and after an altercation with my dad,
was working at a hardware store. I thought that selling this new invention
might be more profitable than what I was currently doing and I could do that
"just for a couple of years" until my singing got established.
Well, after a hairy first year, the business started to prosper. I
became quite successful though money has never been much of a driving force for
me. The two or three years..... somehow turned into many, many
more.
Success had put my passions to sleep. On hold.
Faced with the glaring contradiction of spending upwards of a half
million dollars on the airfield, hangar, and aircraft and a Huge amount of
energy over a MUCH smaller passion than my singing made me see there was
something terribly, terribly 'Wrong With This Picture'.
It forced me to to really sit down and do some very very serious
introspection. I feel some of the processes, and observations I have seen
may be extremely valuable to others who want their lives to more closely mirror
their true passions and values as well as enable them to make their highest
contribution.
You see, I have come to believe that there is a Hero inside each of us
that is waiting to be discovered and Passionately expressed. A passionate
life each of us can create through taking responsibility for our lives. We
create our lives.... and indeed even our own personalities. Few
acknowledge and take responsibility for what they create. When we do take
responsibility we can begin to act and create the life of our
dreams.
When I say "hero" most people think of that as something
other than themselves. Something unattainable. If I told you I was
committed to being my "hero" you probably would think I was
conceited. To me a hero is that person who embodies your individual
values. If you took responsibility and chose your actions consistent
with your true values who else could you possibly be? No one outside you
could possibly embody the whole of your values as much as you have the potential
to do.
To me there is no greater "Hell" than when I choose to
act inconsistent with my values. Conversely, there is no greater Ecstasy than
when I find my actions truly consistent with my highest values.
External vs Internal Orientation
I think the reason there is so much confusion, so few people living
passionate, fulfilled, heroic lives ( which I believe is our nature ) is that
culturally we seem to be "externally" rather than
"internally" oriented. Indeed critical terms like "self
centered", "narcissistic" , "hedonist" discourage
looking inside, but focus on looking outside ourselves for
direction. Most have no clue what they truly want in life.
Usually it's a live directed by "shoulds" from the world and people around
them. Couple that with some religions that teach our "nature" is
sinful, and you would get the idea that it is downright dangerous to look inside
yourself for direction.
I challenge you to spend an hour alone with yourself first thing in the
morning just "being" not doing. Catch up with your
"self" and get in touch with the spirit inside you. I think the
deeper you look, the more you will see how beautiful your true nature
is. I found a spirit who wanted at it's very core to contribute
something of truly heroic proportions. Something that expresses your core
values. A contribution you and perhaps you alone can make.
Some heroes are born from adversity. If you want an excellent
illustration, see the movie "Lorenzo's Oil" the true story of two
parents who's child has ALD, a rare, progressively fatal disease that destroys
the insulating sheath around the the nerves resulting in paralysis and death,
usually before the age of 12. The doctors were making slow progress in
developing a successful intervention. Too slow for Lorenzo or his grief
stricken parents. Desperate, the parents studied everything they could get
their hands on, put together worldwide conferences, and incredibly Lorenzo's
father discovered something that would arrest the disease. At the end of
the movie there are actual healthy children, hundreds of them who introduce
themselves. One potentially tragic situation for Lorenzo was transformed
into thousands of miracles by some incredibly heroic, passionate, responsible
parents. Ask me who I admire , the fictional "super"
heroes or the real life ones and it is simply no contest.
There is nothing "super" human about these people, the Gandhis,
the Martin Luther Kings of the world. They do not have the rare athletic ability
of a Michael Jordan or the IQ of an Albert Einstein, who incidentally was
thought to be "retarded" as a young child. I maintain that what
separated them from typical people of their day was that they had an
extraordinarily deep connection with their inner spirit and were guided
internally by their core values.
I maintain that these heroic core values are universal and part of
our human nature. We become misguided when we look externally for
direction. The compass for our passions and our heroic nature lies deep
within our being.
E-Mail Me: Lacy@LTSound.com